TOO AFRAID TO LOOSE

Welcome to the real world 
Since I was 4 I used to live in a bubble where I rule the rules and where dreams where my reality . But I think that is time to move on . I'm just gonna go out from this bubble that took me away from thé réal World
Its Time to leave my dreams and focus on what's happening in my life. 
Being an actress was my goal for so many years,but after going to this place I really opened my eyes and saw many people with more faith and talent than me. Even if it hurts me to say this but I know I won't make it. 
How many people has this goal ? Thousands and thousands from all over the world. Maybe one of them or many of them will make it so I guess I'll just have to sit and watch them living what for many years was what I used to call my dream. But the thing is that it wasn't just that but also my reason to live. I'll have to find a new reason I know it won't be easy but ill see what is waiting for me in this miserable world 
I won't think anymore about cameras ,emotions , oscars ,fame . . . And all those things that comes with even Angelina Jolie.
Now I see that I don't have any purpose in life. I will live day by day without joy in my life and I'll have to wear a mask and show them that's everything is going great and I'm still happy with a big smile in my face even though I'm fucking broke inside of me.

We all have to wake up one day and I think that now is my time 
Welcome to The Real World Marjana Ines Bouazza !